there are days i can take a compliment and days i can’t. many people have had the kindest words for me and some days i do feel grateful and deserving. other days a simple compliment can fill me with sadness and an inner war of self deprecating words. there is no amount of external validation to ever consistently boost my confidence. how does self love become a part of me? there’s a glimmer every now and then. it’s definitely more there than it was 20 years ago but i’ve yet to tie it down and hold it hostage. unfortunately it’s the other way around.